Is it alright to say what I feel and stop pretending? Is it alright if I stop hiding and lying through my teeth? Is it alright if I just be me?

I want to be truthful, but I'm always so afraid of the consequences, of what others will say. But then again, at times my thoughts just hold me back, they just eat me up. I hate my thoughts, but sometimes I just get the feeling that what I think is correct, that the truth is not too far from what I think, that maybe I am nothing short of a nuisance.

Maybe I should disconnect myself? Maybe I should pull away, before it's too late? Maybe I should stop my wishful thinking and just leave?

I hate my thoughts, because at times I'd much rather die than have to think again...

It's not that I want to be sad, it's not that I want to be down, because honestly, who wants to be upset? I try again and again to be happy and cheerful but reality always sets in and I'm left the loser with the stupid fake grin on her face.

I'm sick of it.

Sometimes I just wish that I could blow my brains out so that I can hear nothing but sweet, pure silence again...

Knowing me I'll just shift this post else where later since I'm nothing but a coward, afraid to let people see what I really think...

I wish someone would just tell me that it's alright to be me, that it will be alright if I stayed...

Just look and be amazed that I PASSED! HAHAHA!!!!! :D

Yesterday was, without a doubt, the most awesome, super duper, fun Sunday I've had in ages! Ok maybe that's a slight exaggeration, but who cares! It was still damn awesome!

PC celebrated post-Journey together at Changi Beach Club's Seafood Restaurant, and the food was great! The only thing that marred it's perfection was the bill (YIKES!) and this creepy waiter/supervisor that kept glaring our way. Bleah... But the food was cool! Let me try and remember the courses...

Salad (Lettuce, Cabbage, Mayo and Peanuts)
Starter Platter (*NOT Deep Fried): Fish and Chicken Floss, Tofu, Silver Fish, *Egg, *Jellyfish
Seafood Tofu Soup(?)
Claypot Chicken
One HUGE Fried Fish
Mushroom and Broccoli
Fried Rice with Prawns and Spring Onion
LARGE Tiger Prawns
Mango Sago

Cool right? Damn nice please! (:

Then after that, bill had to be settled, which was like a major OUCH! It was $773! Didn't expect it to be that costly! Then I had to call Dad to get the bill settled since it would be billed under his account. I had to get him to talk to the guy in black after which the guy said sorry. Haha... Funny, cause I don't see why he should say sorry, aside from the fact that he kept glaring at us. Oh well...

After that some of us went off to watch Wall-E which is superb! I give it a 7.8 out of 10 for it's killer graphics and cute robot love. (:

Went over to Gab Pat's house to see his dog Summer after that before hanging with the others for a while BEFORE FINALLY departing for home. Yup...

So I was out for like 13 hours in total. PC, I love you! All members are super huggable!

OH! And I bumped into Eric at the Cinema too. LOL! (: